Valentines Day Horrors

Well, it's the day. The big V-Day. The big corporate holiday where they try to convince us that if we are single we are worthless and if we are in a relationship that we need to love our significant other more than usual today! Today makes me sick. It really does. This is my 21st V-day alone and maybe i'm just jaded, maybe i'm just cynical. I don't care either way, this day makes me feel horrible just because I can't seem to find anyone to be with. then you have your friends who tell you "make it about your family and friends! It doesn't have to be about a relationship!" Well, yeah, except for everywhere you turn there is a V-day commercial, a couple holding hands, a romantic movie, a billboard, and it all just makes me want to vomit. Did the have to do this? Did they have to pick one day out of the year to make single people feel like they are less important than our infatuated counterparts? I had plans for today, plans for friends and family and such but pretty much everything has been broken and i'm going to spend most of the day alone. The grand finale will be getting drunk at a wing bar that has dollar beers tonight. I told somebody this and their reply was "I'm sure you'll meet someone there!" Jesus Christ, really? This kind of annoying optimism makes me sick. It's not that I hate being positive, I just enjoy being realistic. Nobody is going to pick up the 21 year old, jobless, drunk guy at the bar. It's fine I guess, i'm sure in a few years i'll be out celebrating today with a significant other and I'll try to be positive and optimistic with friends of mine who are in the same boat that i'm in now. Everything goes in cycles in a way. So maybe i'm just negative, cynical, jaded, but thats just how I am today. Tough break.