Friday, February 4, 2011
I've been snowed in 4 days now. Been spending a lot of time thinking about my future and where I am now. I'm wondering if I can accomplish all the things I want in life. I'm watching The Social Network again, it amazes me how smart this guy is. Even though a lot of this is fiction, Mark Zuckerberg is a genius. I know i'll never be able to match his intelligence so it's cool to watch it and sometimes i'll have a dream where I come up with something amazing and make a ton of money and never have to worry about anything ever again. It's a pipe dream I know but eh, it's something. I've applied for over 100 jobs in the last two months, calling most of them. . .not only that but I get this vibe like everyone thinks that I'm not really trying. Yeah, I would donate plasma for 60 bucks a week if I didn't have to. I hate the life I have right now. I would do anything to be doing better right now. I'm doing my best in school but my best isn't very good. I fool myself into thinking that it's because I'm not being challenged or something but the obvious reason is because I procrastinate. I need to get my ass in gear. I need a job, I need to move out, I need to lose 30 pounds, I need to get laid. Ok, that last one isn't really a need. I just need a new life. Something different. I think I may start this tomorrow. Typical procrastinator right?