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Saturday, February 12, 2011

Meh, and not sure why.

I am happy, I am happy, I am happy, I am happy. One of my friends told me I could get over being depressed if I just tried to be postive and repeated this to myself over and over. I don't know if i'm not doing it enough but it doesn't seem to be working. I usually don't like to talk about being depressed just because people either think you are being over dramatic, whining, or whatever but fuck it. This is my blog and if I'm depressed I'm gonna talk about it.

the reason it really sucks is because usually I would have a reason i'm depressed and I could spend some time thinking about it and trying to solve that problem or get past it. Right now I don't have a reason to be sad. I really don't. I mean yeah, i'm single and a can't find a job but seriously? I have amazing friends, who care probably more than I know. I'm talented, i'm told that i'm funny. I have a house, a car, a loving family, a beautiful goddaughter. I don't know why i'm having such a hard time right now. Most people don't know though, i'm pretty good at faking it most of the time. I didn't really know what else to write about because it's all I can really think about. It sucks because half of my time i'm depressed and the other half i'm trying to figure out why i'm so depressed haha. It's a hell of a cycle.

Oh well, everything goes in cycles. Maybe a week from now i'll be the happiest person on the planet. Maybe it's naive to think that life should be a lot easier than this but whatever. Who knows what life is supposed to be anyway?

Here's hoping my next post will be more upbeat and maybe funny. Maybe that way I can keep my readers because you guys sure as well don't want to read shit like this every day. Take it easy guys.


  1. Hope it gets better man. I've had similar issues with depression, and its always seemed to get better over time.

  2. It'll get better, especially if we have a movie night tonight. :]
    And you'll definitely have something to write about tomorrow because you're coming to church with me. You can talk about the experience and what you though, ect. :]
    Love you, best friend! Athena says hi. :D

  3. Depressions suck, but they always disappear. I've had one myselve and I was happy again after only 3 weeks. Positive thinking really helps, just keep doing it, I wish you the best of luck

  4. It's easy to say "snap out of it" but there can be a lot of factors to depression. I hate when people make it seem to easy to be happy. It's difficult for a lot of people for various reasons. I hope you do find some way to keep yourself busy and not think too much about it.

  5. Depression is no fun, I would know. Just try to surround yourself with positive people and things that are able to distract you from it. If you ever need anything don't be afraid to ask, really! Stick in there ;)

  6. I hope you'll feel better soon. Depression's a bitch...

  7. I agree with you..the bag of negativity ones become their own fan and never ever want to getout of their sad cocoon and always want spectators and more count to their pity party.
    because of this, I am scared to console or give shoulder even to genuine souls.
    is my comment making you cry a river, sorry I gotto go

  8. hey man just keep your head up and focus on the good things in your life.

  9. I talking about people who sing pathos tune alltime. i like your approach to feel happy even in unlikely situations.