I am happy, I am happy, I am happy, I am happy. One of my friends told me I could get over being depressed if I just tried to be postive and repeated this to myself over and over. I don't know if i'm not doing it enough but it doesn't seem to be working. I usually don't like to talk about being depressed just because people either think you are being over dramatic, whining, or whatever but fuck it. This is my blog and if I'm depressed I'm gonna talk about it.
the reason it really sucks is because usually I would have a reason i'm depressed and I could spend some time thinking about it and trying to solve that problem or get past it. Right now I don't have a reason to be sad. I really don't. I mean yeah, i'm single and a can't find a job but seriously? I have amazing friends, who care probably more than I know. I'm talented, i'm told that i'm funny. I have a house, a car, a loving family, a beautiful goddaughter. I don't know why i'm having such a hard time right now. Most people don't know though, i'm pretty good at faking it most of the time. I didn't really know what else to write about because it's all I can really think about. It sucks because half of my time i'm depressed and the other half i'm trying to figure out why i'm so depressed haha. It's a hell of a cycle.
Oh well, everything goes in cycles. Maybe a week from now i'll be the happiest person on the planet. Maybe it's naive to think that life should be a lot easier than this but whatever. Who knows what life is supposed to be anyway?
Here's hoping my next post will be more upbeat and maybe funny. Maybe that way I can keep my readers because you guys sure as well don't want to read shit like this every day. Take it easy guys.