Starbucks is my heaven sometimes.

I spend a ton of time using the internet at my local Starbucks. The internet isn't great but my sister is the managaer and I know everyone that works here. It's great to just sit somewhere and have a good coversation and get some work one at the same time. Plus the drinks are great.

I've spent most of today trying to plan out how i'm going to look for a job, do school, and relax all in the same time frame. This shit is a lot harder than it seemed when I signed up for this life. Although I have this feeling like life isn't near as hard as I make it out to be. Hell, most of the time life is great. Maybe not great from some peoples perspective but how can I complain when I have family, friends, a place to sleep, a car, and food to eat. It's a lot more than a lot of people have, but at the same time it's alot less than others. Society drives us to look up to those who have more things than us; cars, money, houses, ect. I want to break past that and look at what really matters. To me life is about laughter, love, and being at peace with yourself. Satisfaction is better than excess. I don't know, maybe i'm wrong. I grew up in U.S.A, a country where everything is drenched in capitalist ideas and I just can't seem to agree and less with them. Not only that but I live in Texas, if I even say the words atheist or socialist here I turn entire room against me. The people here are very endured to what they believe is the "right" way to be, conventional religious values over all else. It's a hard place to live when you're me. It's also hard not to get sucked into the idea that you always need the best; the best car, house, family, job, ect. I just feel that in all this competition we waste precious moments we can never have back. Moments you could be sitting back and relaxing, playing catch with your son, taking a morning drive to nowhere in particular. I think what i'm trying to say is that people need to learn how to stop with the greed and competitions and relax, try to enjoy to one life that you've been given because once you are gone it's not really going to matter how much your car was worth.